Studying abroad has been full of hard times and beautiful moments. The Lord has been working on things in my heart that I did not realize I was carrying. The main thing I have learned from God to let go of during my time here is my desire for control. Back home, I love knowing what I am doing, where I am going, what is happening, and more at every moment. Paris is full of many unknowns which both terrified me and relieved at the same time. My first week here, I felt the Lord tell me this experience is a time of release from feeling like I need to be in control. During one of my sessions with Beatrice and Nicholas, our counseling pastors, Nicholas said that when we let the Lord have control and let go, there is more unconditional love. This has stuck with me. It is frustrating to not understand customs, the language, and people, but I can tell it is stretching my ability to love, listen, and understand. I still have days where these things frustrate me. I have days where I worry about home. Yet, I am reminded by the most gentle and kind voice that ever existed, and He tells me I am free. Now, when I return home, I can use this to remind myself that I do not need to know everything that will happen in my future, my friends, or my family. I just need to be still and know God is watching over me. There is so much more security in this.